Delighting in the Word

The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light;

Those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness,

On them has light shone.”

                                           Isaiah 9:2

     For much of my adult life, I didn’t bother decorating for Christmas. Being single and living alone, the time and effort didn’t seem worth it. (I realize now that what I was really saying by that was … I’m not worth it.) To be honest, I always dreaded the holidays. In fact, deep down I felt like a fraud for not embracing the joy of this season that is so central to my faith.   

      I’m sure there are many who can relate. The bright lights, cheerful songs, and depictions of family togetherness can magnify any feelings of loss and loneliness that we may have. Then there is the tension between long-held expectations and the present reality. I’m the oldest grandchild on both sides of my family. When I was younger, I always imagined that by this point in my life I’d be married, with my own home, and I’d be the one hosting the big family gatherings and establishing the traditions. Waking up on Christmas morning alone in a one-bedroom apartment isn’t how I used to imagine it.

     For Christmas in 2020, I put up a tree for the first time in many years. It was my way of defiantly standing up to all of the trials of 2020 – the grief, isolation, fear and uncertainty – and declaring that I WILL find joy even in such a dark year. We can still celebrate the fact that our Messiah came to Earth in human form and dwelt among us. Last year I added a nativity set, another beautiful reminder of the reason for the hope that we have – a Saviour who took on flesh and knows all of our pain.

     This year I’m planning on hosting a few friends for a New Year’s Day tea. (It won’t be quite like Bridget Jones’ turkey curry buffet, but the spirit of Bridget will definitely be there.) I bought a lovely red poinsettia tea set for the occasion. As someone who didn’t get into decorating and celebrating the holidays for so many years, I almost don’t recognize myself these days. It’s ironic that the darkness and tumult of the past two years have caused me to actively seek joy.

     Wherever you are and however you choose to acknowledge this season, know that you can still find joy even if the holidays don’t look like how you imagined. Reach out and make connections with like-minded people. Establish your own traditions that are meaningful to you. My hope for you is that you will find joy and peace and know that you’re not alone. 

For to us a child is born,

    to us a son is given;

and the government shall be upon his shoulder,

    and his name shall be called

Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,

    Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

                                                        Isaiah 9:6